My bloated belly above… The misery of middle age has begun. It’s hard to remember a day when I didn’t wake up feeling like crap. I’m trying to eat better, to exercise, and to take better care of myself but…
Category: realizations
066 – Caregiving in Limbo
We’re coming out of the fog… But this is a period of limbo. I’ve had my ups and downs with traditional and modern medicine, but what can be done with eyes is nothing short of amazing. One eye has been…
064 – The Vortex of Avoidance
In my last post, I spoke of my layoff. If I had to be let go, the timing was perfect. I was about to head into my final weekend of coach training. From there I was set to go on…
059 – Letting Go
I haven’t picked up a clarinet or a saxophone in 27 years. I always intended to ‘get back into it’ but life got in the way. I figured my musical instruments would live safely at my parents house until I…
057 – I’m so fucking tired
Why???? Why do I consistently feel this way? I am exhausted and I am sick of faking it. All I want to do is crawl back into bed. I even tried that this morning, but I couldn’t sleep. I’ve just…
055 – An unpeaceful uneasy feeling
Most of the time, most of us are too busy to notice time going by… The 40s are a strange time. Many people are taking care of their kids who by this point are either likely to be old enough…
052 – This time I am ready…
After a long hiatus, I find myself back in therapy. But this time, it’s for real. This time, it’s for the somatic approach. Because the body does not lie. Last time, it was polite. This time, it’s going to be…
050 – For KS…
Once upon a time, I found a beautiful soul to take care of my hair. I went through a lot of Groupons before I found her. My hair is not easy. It can be quite mop like. An average appointment…
049 – My shoes don’t fit…
Shoes are a funny thing… I don’t really like wearing shoes and long to live in a place where I don’t have to. Where I could own just one pair, a pair of flip flops that I could throw on…
047 – Necessary Regrets…
I’m back here again, back at the place of debilitating burnout that I experienced last year. Well, that didn’t take long. I thought I was better. I thought the trip to Costa Rica would be the cure, I thought being…