Instead of doing what I should be doing, I sit here writing. Because I should be preparing for the interviews that I’ve secured, that is what a competent person would do. Instead, I am actively brainstorming ways to self sabotage myself, because that is what I do.
I’m comfortable where I am. Why would I want to make a move? The pay is good, I am treated well, and I am well respected. I’ve been at it for over a decade. The practical side of me keeps asking – why would you want to leave the good situation that you are in?
But I know that there is something more for me. That I can’t do this forever and that I have to be brave enough to try something new. I think this is hard because I don’t know that I really want a new full time job. I really want to do my own thing, make my own hours, chart my own course. But that is just way too scary to think about. I need to have a consistent paycheck, benefits, all the things that come with full time work.
I have to do this; I have to at least try. I have to prove to myself that I have not been pigeonholed and that I can learn something new. I can take the skills that I have gained over the course of my career and apply them to something new, something that is going to make a tremendous impact on the world.
I got this. I may not succeed, but I have to at least try. Thanks for listening.
