I fuckin hate this. Fuck the coronavirus and fuck everything getting cancelled. I don’t want to be stuck at home. I don’t want to be scared of other humans. I want to live; I want to enjoy my life and not be living in fear.
Italy is one of my favorite places. I have family there. One of the things that I love about it so much is the sense of community. Italians are not ones to stay home and rot away in front of the TV like many Americans. Italy has a vibrant culture; one where people are out and about and are incredibly friendly. And right now, that is all gone. All the shops are closed. All the restaurants are closed. People are stuck in their homes and they are terrified.
Back here in the US, some good has happened. Things are cleaner than they have ever been. At the barren Whole Foods yesterday, I saw that the shopping carts were being cleaned from end to end. When has that ever happened? By the way, for all of those people who are working hard to ‘deep clean’ let’s pay them what they are worth. Perhaps the big shot CEOs might think about taking some of their millions to give the cleaning people living wages considering they are the ones keeping us safe right now.
But this global pandemic is going to have negative impacts on our society; on all societies for years to come. Germaphobes are going to become more germaphobic. We’re not going to hug each other anymore and fuck, do I miss hugs. Elbow bumps are stupid. I know we have to, but it is just fucking lame. People are going to become more individualistic and hole up in their homes. We’re not meant for this; we are social beings. We are meant to be together. The fear that has been mongered over this virus will last for decades.
All of a sudden, everyone is a hypochondriac. Every time I have a bit of a sniffle or stuffy nose, I’ve assumed that I have the coronavirus. I’m terrified that I am going to pass it on to my husband who has asthma. Fuck, can dogs get it? I worry about my parents – because they will go to church no matter what. The Catholic Church seems like a breeding ground for this. Please, no peace be with you crap – though I can’t believe that I am saying that because well, I miss hugs.
I really feel like I am having a breakdown right now…
